Hey child lifers!
I know it has been a while since I’ve updated you all and, in my defence, I have been so busy and overwhelmed with change that I have not had the time to sit down and write for you all…
…that’s a lie…
Change? Yes, truth, but I have had time to write…I just hadn’t quite figured out how to approach the topic…
Friday October 13 (right?!) will be my last day working as a nanny. I have spent an entire year – 52 weeks, 50 hours a week, 10 hours a day – watching two little girls grow. In fact, I’m going to allow myself a little credit. While I have watched them, I would like to think that I have played an important part in how they have grown and what they have learned. My little ones are both turning 2 at the end of this month and I cannot believe how much they have changed since their first birthday. They’re amazing, smart, funny, and strong little people which is the primary reason that my decision to leave my role as their was nanny so difficult…but I had to do it.
Before I left for Kenya in August I got a call from the Hospital for Sick Children (SickKids) here in Toronto asking to interview me for a Child Life Assistant (CLA) position with them. I was over the moon and managed to fit in the interview a couple of days before I left. While I was away, they offered me the job.
For a while now I had considered the possibility of not renewing my contract as a nanny, simply to allow more time for me to directly pursue child life, be that through volunteering, working, research, etc… but I was hesitant to do this without a “solid” plan in mind. While this job, casual child life assistant working evenings and weekends, is not my dream job, it’s the sign – I feel – that I needed to push me in to taking the leap head first in to my career as a child life specialist.
Friday is my last day as a nanny for my two little ones and I am full of mixed emotions about it all. While I know that I will continue to be a part of their lives as they grow, it hurts knowing that it won’t be in the same capacity as I am now. What helps? Looking at my new SickKids employee badge. It says child life on it! At my shadow shift a little girl asked if I worked there…and I got to say yes and didn’t have to say “I’m a volunteer”. That makes me leaving my girls on Friday okay.
While there are still tons of things I’m not entirely sure of; where I’m going to volunteer, where I’m going to work to make up my hours, and on and on and on…but this is life and I have come to accept that it is never straight and narrow.
So cheers, folks! And Happy Thanksgiving! Stay tuned for more child life updates as I continue on my path to play.
My badge, survivor ribbon, and perler beads mermaid I made during my first shift as a CLA!
My girls in the lake on a bizarrely warm Fall day last week. Their independence is astounding.